Archive for September, 2009

In Egypt I will be for tomorrow  and the next few days to come. Another sudden family decision! Who cares, I manage to enjoy anything and everything. Plus I love travelling so I’ll be okay I suppose. I’m done packing… I guess. I know I’ll be missing my awesome brother way too much even more than I already do at the moment. (Yup he travelled a couple of days ago).

PS: Bro, I love you!

Regarding my emotional status, there’s no update. Everything has been so annoyingly the same. Ironic!! I am, however, expecting something. Something which I’ll be keeping to myself for the time being. I’m hoping for the best, like always 🙂

This week has been such a wreck. A beautiful wreck. What’s awesome is that school is postponed to October 10th ! exactly 5 days before my November course exam. That’s good. I won’t be missing my Day 1 as an 11th grader with my mates because of this sudden trip to Egypt.

That’s all for now, I should get back to packing. There’s quite plenty of time left…I hope lol

Cheeeeers all 🙂


Apparently the Twilight obsession is taking over people’s brains and making them believe in vampires!! My awesomely awesome friend Bayan brought up this link on Yahoo Answers and I really don’t know what to say upon reading this. Shocked? Yeah, pretty much. Just check this out (and expect yourself to ROTFL!) :

Resolved Question :

Do vampires really exist?

I’ve been researching on vampires and still don’t know whether or not they exist. Has anyone ever really seen one? Just to let you know, i haven’t been drinking…just really want to know. Any information would be very mush appreciated.
Best Answer: ( what’s in italics between brackets is my comment)
Vampires are real on many different levels.

When you talk about vampires, most people think of blood suckers. There most certainly are blood vampires.

I’ve only ever drank my own blood; sucking on a wound, or laying on my back with a bloody nose.  Nose blood; not the greatest, but I wasn’t totally grossed out. Wound blood; not so bad. So even as a complete non-vampire, I can’t claim that I regard human blood as a completely disgusting thing to drink.
( Reaaaaaally! Now does that make us all vampires?? Come on who hasn’t sucked on a wound! )

 As for the vampires I’ve met, drinking blood is an amazing and wonderful thing. (Is he on Draculla Land or something? And do you do toasts while having your supposedly awesome bloody glasses? ) It’s all about that life force energy, and blood carries that energy. Many say that just reaching out and draining someone of their energy is the greatest high, but drinking blood adds a thrill of sensuality. ( SENSUALITY????? )  Feeling as it enters their mouth, still warm. Swallowing, physically taking the life-force inside of them. Tasting someone from the inside. They talk about it as a real thrill. Amazingly sensual. ( Personal Advice : Stop watching too much horror thrillers!!)
Also, AB negative blood is supposedly the tastiest. ( Damn! I’m not an AB. Too bad! ) It’s a little sweeter than most blood. ( Seems like you’ve been doing that for so long buddy) They say that an AB negative diabetic is like a candy apple.
There are communities of blood vampires throughout America, but they are very private, and they look just like everyone else. (Here you go again into Twilight ! ) Not all vampires are goth. There could be a vampire living next door, and you’d never know. ( And how do YOU know 🙂 ? )
Many people drain those around them of life force energy, but there are some who can do it purposefully. They have the ability to reach out and drain a person’s energy, and some are better at it then others. Some can contact you from far away in the vision realm after having looked you in the eyes and made a karmic connection, and take your energy. ( And is that what they call love from the first sight .. *sigh* ) But the best is when they can just reach out and take it, draining a person until they fall on the floor. They say it’s far better than caffeine. These are the energy vampires.

One time I was doing energy work and had a sign up which said, “Energy”. Several energy vampires came to the booth thinking that it was like a bar for vampires to get energy.  They might have gotten some energy from it, but mostly I learned a lot about how vampire energy works. What most struck me was that all the chakras were open except for the base chakra which was completely blocked. One wore shoes with extremely thick rubber soles to help block the grounding energy. They didn’t draw energy from the earth, and grounding limits the excursions into the vision realm. (Too much Physics in there, not my thing … AKA Didn’t get it ! )

I have a good friend who can willfully drain energies. She’s the only energy vampire I know who only uses her power for good. ( Awww) She takes people’s headaches. She also has an amazing ability to sense energies, making her one of the most powerful witches I know (I know a lot of witches who claim to be powerful, but very few who actually are). I have known her for many years. ( THE SIXTH SENSE !! )

One time it was the dead of winter, she was sitting next to a window, and she felt someone looking at her. She looked and there was someone dressed in black with no color in their body sitting across the road, intently looking at her. She looked down for no more than five seconds, looked up again, and he was sitting on her side of the road, still intently looking at her. He was not dressed for the cold, but was not shivering at all. She looked down again, and looked up and he was sitting 10 feet from the window. Just intense calm looking at her. She immediately closed the blinds realizing that she had just had an encounter with a real vampire, although she recognized him as a kindred spirit. Had she left the blinds open, there is no telling what could have happened to her. ( Okay? You need to quit horror thrillers like I said before, Capito? )

It probably wasn’t a vampire like Dracula or what we see from Hollywood, but it was definitely something from outside of our mundane existence. ( See, That proves my point! Take my advice 🙂 ! ) So there might be another kind of vampire out there also. The vampires of myth and legend might be roaming the earth after all. My personal theory is that they would be magickal beings, like faeries only far darker, and far more dangerous. ( … And they lived happily ever after! Dude I salute you for your very vivid imagination!!)


I walk freely in the fringes, and have seen many things which few ever see, and fewer talk about. There is quite a bit in this world beyond the acceptance of mundane society. ( Mundane society… Hmm. I personaly think what you wrote up there is what’s beyond acceptance lol)
Well have you ever heard of  “Porphyria” ??
In brief, It’s a disease when people think there are vampires. (again thanks to Bayan for searching into this)
For details check wikipedia/Porphyria 
OMG! This is like the most disturbing thing I’ve ever came across! Disturbing yet hilarious and silly haha !! Please God have mercy 🙂


Posted: September 17, 2009 in Emotions, evaluation, happiness, hope, Randoms, Spirituality

Who doesn’t get to experience helplessness at some point? Who never gets to find himself/herself wandering aimlessly with disappointment and failure? Yes, two of the heaviest burdens – Disappointment and failure. We’re too weak. We tend to bend our heads, look down, duck our faces between these helpless hands, into this muddy earth. But why do so when you can look up to the sky, and talk to He who created you. God.

I’ve been feeling so secure lately. Secure and peaceful. Evaluate your current status and ammend it, for only then you can experience these two. I love God. This is the simplest way to put it, and this definitely reflects on our lives.

 All it takes us is some tiny bit of understanding, knowing that whatever happened happened for a reason. One which we either know or not. And whatever didn’t take place, never meant to be. Again for some reason, for our own good! It’s all up to God, and only Him can decide.

I used to wish for certain things to happen and pray for them happening for I thought I knew what was best for me. But now, I pray, asking God for whatever He wants to be. He knows what’s best for me more than I do. I’m happy with that, really happy! Only knowing, feeling and actually living the love of God, surrounds you with a shield of piety. It’s both all the guidance and  protection one might need.

I have God on my side, whom shall I fear?


Posted: September 15, 2009 in communication, Emotions, evaluation, Love, Randoms

She’s happy. She’s smiling. Lot’s of happy faces she puts on. She’s okay. Well, let me tell you she’s not as happy as she shows. Take a deeper look. A sincere one. Just look into her eyes, into her soul, read into her! Can’t you do that? Did you even ever try?? She’s always there. All sweet and innocent as she is, all happy with anything as you’ve always known her, you know it. What about you? Haven’t you noticed it’s taking you a bit too long? Not yet. Why should you even be bothered? She will be there.

She’s never asked you for anything. Nothing. All she needed was you. The YOU she knew. She expected you know it. Yes, without the need to put it into words. Atleast she thought so. Yet all she’s been exposed to lately was disappointment. One after the other. Never realized that? Never noticed? Like always…

She isn’t shallow. Nor naive. She’s just so kind that made her look as thou she was. You know that very well. That was what made you fall for her in the first place. Maybe you’re just too indulgent to realize how painful waiting was, how even more painful waiting followed by direct disappointment were. She gave you all the chances you might need, even more. She was waiting for you to make it up for her, but did you even have that on mind? Nah you were too busy. Wasn’t that your last excuse??

Things were going just fine. Perfect actually. But you are turning more into a mystery to her, a really weird one! I don’t want to illustrate you as such a mean horrible figure, she’d never want to,  but She loves you more than you can ever imagine! And this is painful…

And untill this day, she still believed in you. She knew you were worth it. But you? Were you? I think you broke her heart. She’s had enough, really! If you didn’t mean it, why did you say it in the first place, why did you try so hard? Why did you get her to go for it? She’s so confused, can’t you see? You left her no propper “reasonable” explanation. What do you expect then?  

Wake up. She’s slowly disappearing from your life. Can’t you tell? And she will keep doing so until you get back to reality. But when you do, wouldn’t she be gone already? Don’t let your ignorance make you lose her. Don’t let it bring you back into the reality with a no “her”. The reality you didn’t like. Put her back in!

She has already made her mind. She’ll quit your life. She’ll walk away and you can’t blame her. She’s got every right to. If she dies, don’t sit by her grave and cry. She wouldn’t want to see you in such mess. Plus, she needed you by her side during her living, when she really needed the balance, security and stability it brought her. It’s typical human nature.we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives and  we never know what we’ve got until we lose it. Only then we start to understand, maybe  whine and even remorse.

To her, you were a priority. Don’t let her be one of you too many choices. And beware, She’s way stronger than you could ever imagine. Regret was never an option. She could get this same heart of hers all wrapped and sealed once more. She’ll move on, even if she didn’t want to…




I woke up this morning on a weird sound. Pegions? Naah, I know how that sounds. I looked at the window. Curtains were closed like always, but there was this shadow of what seemed like an enlarged pegion. A rooster?? But do roosters even fly?? I was too sleepy to be bothered. Turned aside and tried to get back to sleep though that sound continued.

 A while later, I woke up on my brother shouting: “IT’S A ROOSTER!”. Man! I wasn’t halucinating then! haha It IS a rooster!! Big and white!!  My brother was pretty annoyed. He says it didn’t let him sleep. It wouldn’t go away even with him throwing pillows at the window. Personally, I liked it. How many times do you get to wake up and find a rooster at your window? lol

Dad got a red teddy bear at the window and was teasing it, but no use. I didnt really want it to go. It looked cute! I think we freaked it out! It looked at us with a weird look of humiliation and then flew away to the next window! haha, I’m not quite sure wheather that was it attempting to fly or only jumping, but all I know is that it went away. I could still see it, and untill now, I can see it sitting quietly overthere. lol Poor Rooster, we scared the hell out of it ! 😛

November. It’s when the weather gets pretty awesome overhere! Not only that, but it’s when most of my best friends are born which means birthdays are everywhere and it’s nothing but FUN FUN FUN!! Let the November rains shower xD! What is more important is what I’ve just come across on Ass Buster  Beyoncé live in Egypt this November ! I don’t know wheather or not I’ll be in Egypt by then, but this is already exciting enough!

6th November, get ready to kick ass people! (As for my babe, Happy b-day in advance *wink* )

For more information, check awesome Ass Buster, or the official  Beyonce website

Get better soon ♥

Posted: September 12, 2009 in communication, Emotions, health, Love, Randoms

You’re sick. Again. And it breaks my heart knowing that I can do nothing to make you feel better. I can, but I won’t for I’ve made up my mind on what I’m doing next, which is practically nothing. It feels just as bad as your illness! Maybe even worse… What’s on my mind is too much to put in words.

*Sigh* I just hope you get better soon, very soon!