Archive for June, 2010

That song is definitely one of my favourite!

It flashed me back a long time ago. It reminded me of the millions of broken hearts out there who are basically waiting for absolutely nothing!! There are loads of them clinging to a very fine thread of that so-called love which suffers ignorance and disappointment. What for? 

All that corruptive pain is nothing but a consequence of a reckless decision of loving the wrong person. But then, being too in love to let go holds back our minds. It would resent it, if only it could!! If only it did!! Again, everything happens for a reason

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It makes me feel sad seeing the many of them suffer. Seeing them crying themselves to sleep. One wrecked relationship could be quite disruptive! And getting over it might take a whole lot of both time and effort. That’s if they do get over it in the first place… Even if they do, the scar still remains. It fades with time, but it’s still there. And the tiniest coincidence could cut it wide open. That would keep on happening. On and on. And everytime this happens, you get to see your dreams shattered all over again. Until you get used to it. Until this builds up strength in you. 

And the proof is when you come across the places you used to be in together. The songs you used to listen to. The live memories all around you. But all of these no longer have any effect on you. Your heart never beats the same, never jumps out of place as it bumps into them. Only then you know you’ve got over it. You find yourself putting on that sarcastic smile and walking away. Because, honestly, you no longer give a fuck.

As I heard that song, I flashed back. I felt sorry for those who do through that pain every day. I felt sympathy. I did feel sorry for all those who are so messed up to be the reason for other people’s sufferance. I felt irony.

I felt strength, yet nostalgia.

Has boredom ever been so inspiring? Well it always is when it comes to us. The girls and I were hanging out together and after a couple of card games we decided that Today needed some special ignition! We eventually made up our minds of having some BR! Yeps, what’s better than the awesome Baskin Robbin’s in a freaking hot summer moring?  The idea then grew into buying an icecream cake! And we did.

There it was. Delicious, tempting and sensational!!  It’s an edible piece of art!

 

As you can see, I’d already eaten some of the squared cake/browny pieces, whatever they were, I was too turned on to decide what that was 😛 Yummyyy! Mouthwatering!!  This was sheer deliciousness. Then came the tough part, slicing it into pieces. The icecream was so solid and the knife was too weak to cut through! You know what was even more challenging?? Eating it 😀

Icecream started to slowly melt and soak the cake’s spongy texture. That then setteled in my mouth as my tongue rolled over to taste the sweetness of chocolate. Chocolate bits were all over the place, and after we all enjoyed such chocolate fantacy, the mighty cake ended up like that :

See that knife? Yh, that’s the one that gave us a hard time 😛 And these were the remaining bits!  It was too yummy that we started finger-licking! xD

Ahhhh, I love u girls! And I totally loved every crunch of that BR cake ! haha ❤

Today we graduated. We’ve officially bid ‘Highschool’ our farewells. Off we go. The ceremony was fabulous. By the time parents had taken their seats, music was on and we were already walking into the hall. It was a symphony. A beautiful one! Cameras were everywhere, flashlights were like shooting stars! Every parent wanted to capture a memory. And they definitely did.

As we walked over our school’s red carpet, I felt weirdly proud. Maybe because I’ve come this far to the edge of success. I believe everyone felt the same. We couldn’t stop smiling. And as we walked a distance ahead, I could see my teachers smiling back as they watched their fruits ripen! Happiness filled every corner of the hall.

There was the stage. It was getting closer, and I soon found myself up on it’s floor. I could see mum! I could see everyone! The way I felt couldn’t be expressed as “ecstacy”. It was more than just that. I was surrounded by people I love, and who love me back. Mum, friends and teachers. The same cameras that followed us up, kept staring at us as we crowded the stage and as we decended it’s stairs.

(Credits to our awesome photographer, Sara Zaki )

We had our seats and It was now time for the principals word. Once she was done, it was time for OUR word, our speech! Two of my friends and I were asked to come forward as our names were called. There we were. Infront of the too many parents. What’s weird is that, by the time it was my turn to speak out I wasn’t scared. The idea of it was worring me yesterday night. But then, it was more like this provoking mixture of happiness and excitment overcame my fear. It slowly wiped it out and took over.  Worry was so trivial to unveil itself. It slowly kept deteriorating…

We soon exchanged places, and it was me with the microphone in hand. The smile was still on. It was stretching wide. Very wide. I was where I belong. Where I’ve always loved- on stage. I automatically started my speech, which went like:

Today, we stand before you, not as highschool students anymore but as graduates who are ready to take off for a great responsibility that is yet to come. A whole new life awaits us, and life starts now!

We were surrounded by mothers who weren’t only professional, but caring and passionate. We were surrounded by sibilings, sisters and brothers. We were a family. and together, we made memories!

A very strong family of a principal, coordinators, supervisors, teachers and students that together built an unbreakable bond of affection and support. Hand in hand we grew stronger and hand in hand we faced off endless challenges.
 

Looking back at these years, we laugh. our box of memories is loaded with happiness.

Is this the end? Definitely not! It’s only the beginning. This is where we take off. It indeed was our second home it shall be forever…

The view was magnificent! Having audience actually listening to what I was saying made me feel good enough!

Apllause. Then my friend carried on from here.

Today was awesome in all measures. It was a classic that I can never forget. Today marked both the end of an era, and the start of a new one.  Today was happy. And I absolutely loved each and every single minute of it ❤

I know you well enough to understand what you’re trying to hide. Your eyes show it. I can see it so blatently. Yes, I know you well enough to tap into your mind. I know what you’re thinking. If only I could change it! If only I could erase all the doubts you’ve got lingering overthere. They’re useless anyway. If only I could find a reason to clarify them.. I know my stubborness isn’t helping, nor if I chose to be passive about it. That’ll only offer them a chance to grow larger. And trust me, I wouldn’t let that happen!

If you don’t like what I’m doing that doesn’t mean it’s wrong! Where has the understanding gone? I know u’ve got a point, but so do I. They’re both as powerful and that’s the problem.

I just hate it when you overanalyse this stubborness of mine as a committment to something I’m trying to hide. I don’t do that. I always do what I find right. I dunno if I’d want you to be more frank about what you’re thinking, beacause then, I’m gonna face a larger obsticle- To explain what doesn’t exist!

But again, that’s who you are. And you’re just awesome like that 😉 lol 

 

My world is Abstract. My world is what you feel. My world is the emotions that lay far beyond words you can’t find, Sentences you can’t put together, and feelings that lack explanation and sense. I lay all that down. I put it together, right in here.

A fantacy? Yeah it is at times. It is where I breakaway. It varies. Sometimes it’s not. Sometimes it’s only a down-to-earth, logic based fundemental analysis. It could make perfect sense, or it couldn’t. As for me, it always does. It’s where complexity untangles. It’s where my picture clears up. It’s where I get you seeing the picture in the first place.

It’s the explanation that completes the puzzle. It could still be the puzzle itself.

This is my world. A variable. One which always looks for the peace and serenity it finds in faith. One that tries it’s very best to see the bright side in everything!

My world is my logic, my brain. And this is how it functions.

And that goes into our school yearbook … Yup, “Graduates” section.

Byebye Highschool. It’s just about time each and every one of us takes lead of his/her life. There’s more to it than just college. A whole new life with new dimensions awaits us. One which demands a more responsible and independent us!Life starts now.

Looking back at this year, it has definitely been one of a kind! We’ve made a whole lot of memories that shall linger in our minds forever. Memories that no matter how far life takes us, we shall never forget. We’ve met teachers whom we owe more than just a sincere “Thank you”, friends that became very close to us, so close that they became even more than just friends. Siblings? Maybe even more!
Looking back at this year, I laugh. My box of memories is loaded with happiness that we’ve built together with whatever we’ve come across throughout the days. It indeed was our second home it shall be forever…

And as the first batch to graduate from KMIS, we take pride in flying our caps high, really high, just as high as our ambitions!

A Levels. What else could it be? Well, let’s not over describe it. It IS anti-social, but not VERY. You know, these couple of  months has been a wreck. Getting done with the syllabus, pre-mocks, mocks, then official CIE examinations… hangouts less often, my friends and I barely meet up. Phew! I feel my creativity is restrained. 

Anyway, I’m left with one more to go. By 10/6 I’ll be screaming “Freeeeeeeeeeedom”! The worst is over by now lol This year exams were really challenging. I felt some questions were from Mars ! Anyway, I so can’t wait for summer’10!

It’s almost there!!

Any plans? Hell yeah! Fun, fun, and some more fun! Wait, I’m not that shallow 😛 Apart from the classics (beach, hangouts, sleepovers etc…) my friends and I are looking for a summer job. I’d rather say, looking for a sense of independence and responsibility! I just don’t wanna let my time go to waste. My Art, ofcourse I haven’t forgotten that. Planning to visit the nearest bookshop very soon. I need to add a few more stuff to my painting set, try out a few more colourings and mixtures.

Cooking? Since I was just talking abt “responsibility” then yeah, I should give it a shot. I won’t eat my first dishes though lol. 

I so can’t believe highschool is over. It’s been one hell of a year. Even the last few years, they were just as wonderful!  I’ve had my fair share of nearly everything. That’s what I call experience !

All in all, this summer shall hopefully be way more productive than last years. BIGTIME!!

So let’s just hope these few days pass so quickly so that I’d get my plans into action. 😉